new album

it's me, hi. I hope u like the new album. I know there's not a lot of people still here and that's fine but I still wanted to make this for me.

I think I've said this before but I've never really made an album when I was in a good headspace mentally (which is kind of scary to think about given I made albums non fucking stop from 2013-2018 ummm) and lowkey this album is the same. IM FINE NOW. but this album is based on a very specific time in 2022 where I was not.

I don't think I'm breaking any new ground with the tracklist or even the artwork for this album but it's certainly different for me I feel. It feels both more mature than any of my last albums and also extremely immature to me. IDK I'm rambling basically I just wanted to make a blog post to talk about the album.

I've done 0 promotion for the album cuz there's no point and even if I did people wouldn't have believed it would release anyway and understandably so 😭. I thought of this album I wanna say 3 weeks ago from writing this and it just felt correct. Ive been working on MCX for like idk how long now and at the end I just decided nah I'd rather do something else. 2022 was one of the hardest years of my life. I went out, partied more than I ever have in my life, had such intense incredible highs, travelled so much, got a new job that I loved, made friends, etc. I'm not saying this to brag, because along with that I also experienced the lowest of the lows. I don't want to get into specifics in that regard but I think if you listen to the album and the imagery it becomes clear what happened. In summary the album is about delusion, ignoring warning signs, settling for less, and then being thrown to the wolves.

Fun fact I almost called the album "Yesterdays Jam"

With the album I took a lot of inspiration from Miley Endless Summer Vacation. The album is split into two parts. Tracks 1-6 are about delusion, naivety, and ignoring signs. 7-12 is the consequences of that and what happens along with me trying to save something that I know is doomed. When I was making the album i kind of had to relive a lot of trauma from 2022 and I didn't really want to but honestly I think it's really helped me. So like to me while the album was really really difficult to make and I think it's a deceptively personal album, I did heal a lot while making it. That's one of the reasons I chose Karma to be the last song on it. Karma is absolutely real and that's something I've learned only in the last 3 weeks. I do think it would be naive however to think that I myself am exempt from karmas trolling and I think I need to remember that.

I always do this omfgg I always ramble on even after saying I'm rambling on why am I talking about karma on this day I don't know.

but yeah

This album is full of self hatred, shame, embarrassment, delusion, sex, heartbreak, intense emotional destruction etc you know the usual. While I say that though I want people to know that I'm okay. I'll always be okay. I'd rather die than ever let a man destroy my self esteem and confidence. Letting a man ruin me is NOT very Alpha Female miss honey.

XOXO Keri